Seeing Me

When I look in the mirror do I like what I see

Perhaps I like my reflection,but do I see me

Do I see the woman that always tries

Yet if I look closer still, do my eyes reflect my silent cries

Is there strength and courage forming on the line around my nose

When people ask for a good woman, the point at me saying,”There she goes.”

Do I see all my faults and none of my beauty

Or will my eyes only see me, seeing me

Can having acne impact your life? But I think I can help.

Quick answer for me, YES! I don’t know that people who have never suffered from constant breakout understand that.

I started having massive breakouts when I was eleven years old. It was really bad. It was so bad I was once asked did I have chicken pox. That was quiet humiliating. I hated going anywhere. I hated talking to people. I often heard people talking about me behind my back, some would be so bold to tell me to my face. “Hey girl you ugly,” “Don’t nobody want you with all them thangs on yo face,” and “Hey ugly,” Sometimes I would get the “why don’t you look like your sister,” as if I had a choice.When I would go and apply for jobs, I was always placed in the back if I was hired.

I know some of you can relate. Acne can be a B*^*h. But here is what I learned about me and acne. When I was stationed in Kuwait they do not drink cows’s milk, which I happen to drink a lot of when I was growing up. Instead I drank a lot of tea, and because I still liked cereal I actually put water(which I do not recommend) on my cereal. My skin slowly started to clear up soon it was beautiful. And for the first time in my life i got a compliment. Yeah you heard me, a compliment. I had never had one, only insults.

Later on I learned of black African soap and shea butter, both of which has held me tremendously with my skin.

So below are the things I use to help treat my acne

Very low amounts of cows’s milk, (I think this is because of all the hormones )

Retin-A which I sometimes use but not often

Shea butter

Black African Soap

I also notice I tend to have more small breakouts if I eat a lot of pizza.

I hope this helps someone. There is nothing good about acne.

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One other thing.My poem “The show she puts on ,” is how I felt walking around with acne.

The show she puts on

She walks with

her head held high

She ignores the smirks

and sneers of the passerby

She hears the whispers

spoken behind her back

She knows her imperfections

and the beauty she lacks

She feels the laughter

and know there is nothing she can do

Yet she walks head high

to put on a show for you

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Week Four Challenge: Pick up the phone and call someone

It seems like the days are gone of us actually connecting with real people. When we are with anyone are we really there with them, or are we wondering what other people are doing. Somehow the ability to connect with more people has some kind of way disconnected us. So many of us feel alone,lonely, depressed, because we are not talking to each other. And no a text is not the same thing. One would argue a text from killer with your phone has gotten a murderer a few more days freedom. Strange to say but yes, it happens.

There is something about the sound of a person’s voice that can make you feel things, a person’s voice can make you laugh,cry,forgive, remember,smile, relax,you get the point. I’ve always liked this poem

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No the entire poem is not on here yet you can feel his excitement just at the sound of her voice. Your voice does that to someone too. Be someone’s joy this week. call them. Don’t text. Call and hear their voice. Let their voice wash over you. You will definitely feel better.

Okay people let me know how this challenge went.

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